What is Love?

What is love? How do you know when it's love?
You know when you’re singing along with this song, and you know all the words cause you really love it. Then a train passes and a door closes, and you can’t hear the music anymore, but you keep singing anyway. Then, when you can hear it again, you’re still perfectly in time with it. That’s what love is.
That's how it is with you. Love has no distance. The test of love is not when we are together. It comes when we are not together and realize that despite the distance, love is still there.
Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.
When you're not there, I'm so scared. When the thought of losing you happens to run by, I get so scared. But it’s good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose.
I can't believe I ever held back from trying to make contact with you. I tried to deny it. It’s hard to pretend you love someone if you really don’t, but it’s harder to pretend you don’t love someone when you really do.
One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart you can’t speak. I was always looking for that right moment. But maybe there are no right moments, right guys, right answers. Maybe sometimes you just have to say what’s in your heart.
I always had little tiny bursts of confidence but it goes away. The feeling. That feeling that you have right now. Today. That feeling like you can do anything. That clarity. It goes away. And you go right back to being the coward who can’t tell the person you love how you feel.
Sometimes you want something so badly that you’re afraid of the consequences. But are you really afraid of the consequences? Or are you afraid of what you really want?
Thank you for stepping up. I always told myself that I could be that person. You can be anything you want. But you have to take a risk sometimes. Reach out. One thing I can tell you for sure is this: we only regret what we don’t do in life.
I regret it. But I don't regret now. I don't regret that even though we started later than that I would've wanted, we still started regardless. That's why I believe that when two people are meant to be, it doesn't matter how, when, or where. They'll be together.
But so what? Nobody’s life is filled with perfect little moments. And if it were, they wouldn’t be perfect little moments. They would just be normal. How would you ever know happiness if you never experienced downs?
It was a long wait for something I wasn't even aware of. It was a slow change for something I didn't know I was supposed to be prepared for. But you know the great thing, though, is that change can be so constant you don’t even feel the difference until there is one. It can be so slow that you don’t even notice that your life is better or worse, until it is. Or it can just blow you away; make you something different in an instant. It happened to me.
You happened to me. I hope you know that. But if you dont, I guess that’s the point of it all. No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other people. Oftentimes, we have no clue. Yet we push it just the same.
The last couple months of my life has been like this wide-awake nightmare of conflicting emotions. But no matter how bad it got, one thing kept me going. Us. Our bond, our connection, whatever you want to call it. It made me feel like I wasn’t alone, like I was part of something special. So I won't ever whine about being friends or not being friends, if it ever comes to that point. It’s just that, for the first time in my life at that moment, I won't feel that connection anymore.  And it scares me. The thought scares me.
You mean so much to me, that I’m scared to close my eyes and open them and see that you’re not there. And I’m scared to leave them open to see you leaving me. But if you really love a person, you will let them be happy with whoever they are with, even if it’s not with you.
I'd do that. No second thoughts. I'd do that.
But thoughts like this are what keeps from being a complete optimist. It makes me be a realist. This is why you should never, ever get your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you aren’t as devastated.
But sometimes life is so perfect, isn’t it? It has to be! To make up for all the hard stuff it throws your way. You have to learn how to walk, you have to learn how to talk, you have to wear that totally ridiculous hat your grandma bought you. You have no say in the matter and when you get a little older, you don’t get to choose what they put in those meatballs at the cafeteria. Things happen, and you just have to deal.
Life is truly a ride. We’re all strapped in, and no one can stop it. As you make your way from youth to adulthood to maturity, sometimes you put your arms up and scream; sometimes you just hang onto the bar in front of you. But the ride is the thing. I think the most you can hope for at the end of life is that your hair is messed up, you’re out of breath, and you didn’t throw up.
Sometimes, if you're lucky enough, you'll meet a person like yourself. You meet people who forget you. You forget people you meet. But sometimes you meet those people you can’t forget. Those are people like you. They say, ‘forgive and forget’, but if someone’s worth forgiving, you’ll never forget them.
Nobody takes a picture of something they want to forget.
I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. And it’s not because you are unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You’re the epitome of every attribute and quality that I’ve ever looked for in another person.
It’s not just a physical attraction, I love you for every single thing you are. Every word you say, every step you take. This is something that will never die. I have tried to stay reasonable with this, but I just can’t anymore. I just can’t.
Love is living your own life, but sharing it. Love is forgiveness, its making a million mistakes and turning them into learning experiences. Love is patience, optimism and sometimes its a kiss when there is nothing left to say.
I’ve kissed a guy… I’ve kissed guys. I just have not felt that thing…. That thing… That moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy, and the only thing in focus is you and this person. And you realize that that person is the only person you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift. And you wanna laugh and you wanna cry, ‘cause you feel so lucky that you’ve found it, and so scared that it’ll go away all at the same time.
Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.
All my life I never found what I couldn’t resist, what I couldn’t turn down, I could walk away from anything I ever knew, but I just can’t seem to walk away from you.
Because honestly, there’s no such thing as the perfect soul mate. If you meet someone and you think they’re perfect, you better run as fast as you can in the other direction, cause your soul mate is the person that pushes your buttons, pisses you off on a regular basis and makes you face your shit.
That's why I can never walk away from you. You may irritate me sometimes, but you bring out the best in me.
There's people telling me that it won't work out, but I don’t care what they say. They say you might hurt me and they’re probably right. They say you're just out to play games. But when I’m with you it feels so right. So how can they possibly think that what I feel for you is wrong? Maybe they’re just confused, because I’ll never believe that something that feels so right could ever be wrong.
Throughout life you will meet one person who if unlike any other, you could talk to this person for hours and never get bored, you could tell them things and they won’t judge you. This person is your soul mate, your best friend… Don’t ever let them go.
I won't ever let you go.
I love you. Foreve_.
Just so that forever will never end.