Only Once In Your Life

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you have never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid, it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or did not exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real, it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Children Are People Too.

Childhood is the world of miracle or of magic: it is as if creation rose luminously out of the night, all new and fresh and astonishing. Childhood is over the moment things are no longer astonishing. When the world gives you a feeling of "déjà vu," when you are used to existence, you become an adult.
But that's not what this is about. This is about why our idea of a eutopia is chaos. This is about why our world is slowly turning corrupt. This is about why our world is starting to be neglected of all the beautiful things. You rarely see beautiful things on the news anymore. It seems like today all we ever see featured on TV is chaos.
Chaos caused by who? Adults? Or kids?
We know that the outcasts and misfits are the children most likely to become violent, so it only follows that we must pull them into the arms of love and/or acceptance, and find a place where they fit. If our system doesn't have a place where a child fits, there's something wrong with the system, not the child.
I'm not worried about kids. I'm worried about grown-ups, okay? These are the ones who vote. These are the ones who tell you, "the world is coming to an end in 2012!" Kids don't say that, grown-ups do.
I'm worried about grown-ups who say. "read my horoscope! Tell me whether I'll find money tomorrow!" Grown-ups say this, not children.
Children are perfectly happy counting through the number 13. Children are not afraid to walk under ladders. They see a black cat cross their path, they say, "Ooh, little kitty kitty!" They want to pet it, not run in the other direction. Children are not the problem here.
That's the real trouble with the world, too many people grow up.
There are children playing in the street who could solve some of the top problems in physics, because they have modes of sensory perception that adults have lost long ago.
We teach children to save their money. As an attempt to counteract thoughtless and selfish expenditure, that has value. But it is not positive; it does not lead the child into the safe and useful avenues of self-expression or self-expenditure. To teach a child to invest and use is better than to teach him to save. The more we shelter children from every disappointment, the more devastating future disappointments will be.
Only a child sees things with perfect clarity, because it hasn't developed all those filters which prevent us from seeing things that we don't expect to see.
Something in the heart of most human beings simply cannot abide pain inflicted on the innocent, especially children. Even broken men serving in the worst correctional facilities will often first take out their own rage on those who have caused suffering to children. Even in such a world of relative morality, causing harm to a child is still considered absolutely wrong. Period!
"Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these." Mark 10:14
"Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it. " Proverbs 22:6
But nonetheless, you still prove everything that you've taught us wrong. You tell us that war is bad, but yet you iniciate it. You tell us that sharing is caring, but yet, you don't reach out to the other side of the world. You tell us that we should treat elders with respect, but what about the respect for us? Is is not a mutual thing?
Is that the way that you choose to teach us? To communicate with us in forms of overexaggerations, biases, and lies?
Some people never learn how to talk to kids. They turn up the volume and enunciate with extra care, as if talking to a partially deaf immigrant. They sound as if they're reading lines somebody else wrote for them, or as if what they're saying is really for the benefit of other adults listening and not just for the child. Kids sense that and turn off.
I have long felt that the way to keep children out of trouble is to keep them interested in things. Lecturing to children is no answer to delinquency. Preaching won't keep youngsters out of trouble, but keeping their minds occupied will.
If children had teachers for judgment and eloquence just as they have for languages, if their memory was exercised less than their energy or their natural genius, if instead of deadening their vivacity of mind we tried to elevate the free scope and impulse of their souls, what might not result from a fine disposition? As it is, we forget that courage, or love of truth and glory are the virtues that matter most in youth; and our one endeavour is to subdue our children's spirits, in order to teach them that dependence and suppleness are the first laws of success in life.
Children are the boldest philosophers. They enter life naked, not covered by the smallest fig leaf of dogma, absolutes, creeds. This is why every question they ask is so absurdly naïve and so frighteningly complex. Children are the only brave philosophers. And brave philosophers are, inevitably, children.
Children are illuminated text-books, breviaries of doctrine, living bodies of divinity, open always and inviting their elders to peruse the characters inscribed on the lovely leaves.
Children are natural mimics. They act like their parents in spite of every attempt to teach them good manners.
So no matter what you say to that child, all they'll listen to are your actions. They pay close attention to that. They learn best through their parents. And if their parents are the kind that say one thing, and do a completely another thing? Well, we know not what children will become, but look to their parents, and that's exactly who they'll grow up to be. "What is the son but an extension of the father?" - Frank Herbert
Old men can make war, but it is children who will make history. So who's going to be the role models for us? But it seems like we are just going to be forced to be our own role models.
But what does it matter? I'm a child. And a child's voice, however honest and true, is meaningless to those who've forgotten how to listen.

Soulmate

  Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... Tears... Laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it. That's when you can truly be a soulmate.
A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for we are and not for who we're pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we're safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we're two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we've found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.
A soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.
A soulmate is someone who chose to be there. Meeting you was fate, you befriending me was a choice, and falling in love with you..? I had no control over.
Whatever souls are made of, yours and mine are the same.
In all the world, there is no heart for me like yours. In all the world, there is no love for you like mine.
Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don’t blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being “in love”, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
Remember, in our inmost being, we are all completely lovable because spirit is love. Beyond what anyone can make you think or feel about yourself, your unconditioned spirit stands, shining with a love nothing can tarnish.
In our imaginations we believe that love is apart from us. Actually there is nothing but love, once we are ready to accept it. When you truly find love, you find yourself. On the path to love, impossibilities are resolved by turning non-love into love.
With spiritual growth comes new creative potential, leading to the realization that you are pure potential, able to fill any creative impulse.
I remember asking my pappy as a three year old, "when will I meet my soulmate?" and him replying, "You'll meet your soulmate, when you're on your soulpath." "But how will I know who my soulmate is?" "By taking risks. By risking failure, disappointment, disillusion but never ceasing in your search for love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end. Wouldn’t it be powerful if you fell in love with yourself so deeply that you would do just about anything if you knew it would make you happy? This is precisely how much life loves you and wants you to nurture yourself. The deeper you love yourself, the more the universe will affirm your worth. Then you can enjoy a lifelong love affair that brings you the richest fulfillment from inside out."
Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more.
The universal Law of Attraction states that we draw to us those people, events, and circumstances that match our inner state of being. In other words, we attract experiences that are consistent with our beliefs. If we believe that there is plenty of love in the world and we are worthy of giving and receiving that love, we will attract a different quality of relationships than someone who believes in scarcity or feels unworthy of happiness. If we believe the world is a loving and friendly place, then most of the time that will be our experience. If we believe the world is a chaotic, stressful, and fearful place, then eventually that will become our reality. So, believing and knowing that your soulmate is out there is a critical first step in the formula for manifesting him or her into your life. When deep down in the core of your being you believe that your soulmate exists, there is no limit to the ways he or she can enter your life.
I was impatient growing up as a child. I waited, and waited and waited some more to find my soulmate. I always had to keep reminding myself, "whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment, are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution."
You always wonder when you're going to meet them. I was looking for the PERFECT person but then I realized... You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
Know that and when you finally meet someone... You'll be sure you were lovers in a past life. After two weeks with them, you'll start wondering why you haven’t kept in touch for the last two thousand years.
And oh, the comfort – the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person – having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, shaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away.
Love is a union with somebody, or something, outside oneself, under the condition of retaining the separateness and integrity of one’s own self. It is an experience of sharing, or communing, which permits the full unfolding of one’s own inner activity.
Soulmates tend to find each other during their respective pursuits of their soul missions. Creating a soulmate could be seen as a spiritual reward that we give ourselves, after pursuing many soul contracts rife with discord.
What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined for life? … To strengthen each other… To be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories.
We recognize a soul mate by the supreme level of comfort and security we feel with that person. That doesn’t mean that there aren’t issues that remain to be ironed out. Rather, it means we know intuitively that we can resolve issues with our soul mate without losing his or her love and respect.
A soulmate is an ongoing connection with another individual that the soul picks up again in various times and places over lifetimes. We are attracted to another person at a soul level not because that person is our unique complement, but because by being with that individual, we are somehow provided with an impetus to become whole ourselves.
After a few (or many) bad relationships, it’s so easy to shut down, give up, and stop believing that the right person is out there for us. Our hearts yearn to fall in love, but our minds insist it’s not possible, and we enter into a tug-of-war with ourselves. It’s as if one part of us is screaming, Yes! I deserve a great relationship! while another part insists, I’ll never find him or her. When our beliefs contradict our desires, we experience an inner conflict that not only paralyzes us, but can actually prevent us from recognizing the possibilities for love that exist all around us.
A soulmate is a person with whom you have an immediate connection with the moment you meet -- a connection so strong that you are drawn to them in a way you have never experienced before. As this connection develops over time, you experience a love so deep, strong and complex, that you begin to doubt that you have ever truly loved anyone prior. Your soulmate understands and connects with you in every way and on every level, which brings a sense of peace, calmness and happiness when you are around them. And when you are not around them, you are all that much more aware of the harshness of life, and how bonding with another person in this way is the most significant and satisfying thing you will ever experience in your lifetime. You are also all the much aware of the beauty in life, because you have been given a great gift and will always be thankful.
Can miles truly seperate you from a soulmate? If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? Distance is nothing to them. Real love stories never have endings.
If grass can grow though cement, love can find you at every time in your life.
A soulmate is not just someone who you can have that kind of love with.
People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly. We cannot really love anybody with whom we never laugh.
Love is also the means of committing one's self without guarantee, to give one's self completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love. Love does not solely consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction. But a soul mate is… Someone whose way of viewing life is not necessarily the same as yours but complements yours, so that there is not a compromise, there is a complement.
Talk about meeting your soul mate … I truly feel I have been given that gift. And believe me, I wasn’t some lightweight package. I’m, like, the package that didn’t just come with luggage — I had trunks.
You asked me if I could in my own words, describe a "soulmate", or if possible with just one word. It's very difficult to describe a soulmate in one word, but I can however describe it in two words.
It's you.

Where There is Darkness, There is Light.

I’m sick and tired of being on my own. Most of the time I’m fine. Some of the time I even quite enjoy it. But at this precise moment in time I’m fed up with it. I’ve had enough.
The great moments of your life won’t necessarily be the things you do. They’ll also be the things that happen to you. Now, I’m not saying you can’t take action to affect the outcome of your life. You have to take action. And you will! But never forget, that on any day, you could step out the front door, and your whole life could change forever. You see the Universe has a plan; and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps its wings, and it starts to rain. It’s a scary thought, but it’s also kind of wonderful. All these little parts of the machine constantly working… Making sure that you end up exactly where you’re supposed to be... Exactly when you’re supposed to be there. The right place. At the right time.
Too often, the opportunity knocks, but by the time you push back the chain, push back the bolt, unhook the two locks and shut off the burglar alarm, it’s too late.
Thank you for waiting.
Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. Thank God I was online at that time that you said hi to me. Thank God I even went on Facebook. Thank God for being at the right place, at the right time.
"If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change." - Buddha. That's how I feel about you. I've witnessed what you're capable of doing, the amazing things you do. You've changed my life.
I’ve learned a lot this month... I learned that things don’t always turn out the way you planned, or the way you think they should. And I’ve learned that there are things that go wrong that don’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken, and I’ve learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who love you.
I've learned a lot about the balance between negativity and positivity. I learned that in some circumstances, there will always be more positive than negative. There’s always going to be bad stuff out there. But here’s the amazing thing — light trumps darkness, every time. You stick a candle into the dark, but you can’t stick the dark into the light. Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Before you came, I liked too many things and got all confused and hung up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.
I don’t know what the key to success is, but the key to failure is trying to please everyone. Limitations live only in our minds. But if we use our imaginations, our possibilities become limitless. I now choose to have selective hearing. When someone gives me negative criticism (the kind that doesn't help or help in any constructive way at all) or tells me that I can't do something.. I'm sorry, but I can't hear you. I won't let someone tell me no, when they don't have the power to say yes.
I've learned that the best comeback is kindness. The best retaliation you can do is to kill them with kindness. You may be sorry that you spoke, sorry you stayed or went, sorry you won or lost, sorry so much was spent. But as you go through life, you’ll find – you’re never sorry you were kind.
But the truth is, everyone is going to hurt you no matter what. You just have to find the people worth suffering for.
You're one of the very few (Ben and my grandpa if he was alive ) that I'd take a bullet for. I'd die for you.
In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.
Conan O'Brien once said, "nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you’re kind, amazing things will happen. I’m telling you. Amazing things will happen."
All my life I’ve felt like there was some part of me missing and I felt that everyone could tell, like there was some hole in me and everyone could see through it, like I wasn’t finished or something. I worked really hard to find something or someone to fill up that unknown empty void that I always had vacant. "Most of the things worth doing in the world had been declared impossible before they were done. " - Louis D. Brandeis. I always thought that I'd always feel empty, and that I'd never fill up that void. It was impossible. Until I met you.
How do I know that it was because of you? Because with other "boys", I never really thought anything through. I think things thoroughly through with you. For example, I know that even though we're going through this very difficult challenge, it has an end. After all, you can’t truly be happy if you’ve never known pain. You can’t truly feel joy if you’ve never felt heartbreak. You can’t really know what its like to be filled unless you’ve been empty. And here’s the other thing: sometimes in life seasons don’t come in order instead of fall, winter, spring, summer, we get three winters in a row. But that doesn’t mean spring won’t come eventually.
And since then, since I've met you, you've taught me so many things. Things such as, it’s not about how to achieve your dreams. It’s about how to lead your life. If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself, the dreams will come to you. The biggest adventure you can take is to live the life of your dreams. I learned that through your lectures. That's why I love to hear you talk. I love to learn, and I've learned to go confidently in the direction of my dreams, and to live the life I have imagined. Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish.
Just like this paper.
I'd like to tell the story that’s been growing in my heart, the characters I can’t keep out of my head, the tale story that speaks to me, that pops into my head during my daily commute, that wakes me up in the morning.
Everyday I'm with you, constantly, I always have that voice in my head questioning me. "You know when transformation happens? Right now. It’s a present activity. Who is the new you? Show me the new you." I'm always constantly changing myself. Little by little, or big portions in short period of time. Nevertheless, always changing. Becoming step by step, -- hopefully to be classified as -- a woman.
I won't waste my time trying to figure out what I'm going to do now that I have more time for my individual development. Someone who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life. I may not know exactly where I'm going, exactly what kind of woman I'm going to be, but any road will get me there.
How little a thing can make us happy when we feel that we have earned it. After seven months, when my transformation has been done, and I get to hold you and show my love for you physically again, I will be ecstatic. I will be over the edge with joy because I know I earned it. Because it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.
I'll admit, it's hard to be around you in public. It's hard to pretend that I'm perfectly content having a minimum of thirty centimetres of space in between us. It's hard. Deep in my heart I’m concealing things that I’m longing to say. Scared to confess what I’m feeling - frightened you’ll slip away. I'm so scared that I'll make a mistake of doing something, and you'll be forced to distance yourself from me. I'd be hurt, but I'd understand. It's for your safety. I'd understand.
I know that right now isn't where I'd most like to be. But I also know that life may not lead me where I want, but I have faith that I am exactly where I was meant to be. There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
I choose to move forward.
Because when you’re struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it’s just as hard as what you’re going through. I understand that too. Feeling sorry for yourself, and you present condition, is not only a waste of energy but the worst habit you could possibly have. Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it.
I'm glad that I don't get completely succomed into my acting. It’s strength to show vulnerability, only strong people can accept when they’re hurting. Your emotions exist for a reason. Your tears don’t make you weak, your tears are a sign of strength. Your feelings exist for a reason, they tell you when things are out of balance, when you’re going in the wrong direction. They’re a compass, they’re meant to be felt and expressed and moved through so that you can grow.
The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain. But you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can’t outrun it and life always makes more.
I can see paradise through this. If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it. Anything you want to, do it. Want to change the world? There’s nothing to it.
I love that we understand each other. Even without the words. Too many people seem to believe that silence is a void that needs to be filled, even if nothing important will be said.
I love how you treat me. You treat me as a woman. You treat me as if love is a behaviour, and not a feeling. It's the way you treat me everyday, all day. Not just when your life is going well. I can tell that you know that there is a difference between interest and commitment. When you are interested in doing something, you do it only when it is convenient. When you are committed to something, you accept no excuses.
I adore how you don't care about my flaws, that to you, the best thing I have are my eyes. My grandfather once told me, "for beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."
We're in this together. I'm there step by step. Remember, I promised you that,

"When you're down and have no one to run to
Looking for a friend, a trust-worthy person who
You can tell all your troubles to; I'll be right beside you
I promise

When you lose your balance
Not sure where to find guidance

Losing control of your life
And the only thing your vision runs on is that knife
Take the knife

And cut me
I'd take all the pain for you happily
I promise

On the days when it's dark, and you can't find your way home
I'll be the northern star in your dark night, so you no longer have to roam
I promise

When you're lost and want to turn back
Don't
Keep going
Just listen for the footsteps behind you
I'll be there to support you
I promise

I'll always be two-steps behind you."

We are both committed to making this work, I know that. That's how I know we'll make it though this.

I love you. Forever and for always.

For Valentine's Day 2012

Chances are like lightning: they never hit the earth at the same spot twice. So when a chance comes your way, grab it cause it may never come again.
I do believe in fate, but I also believe that we control our own destinies, and I’m not sure which I believe in more. I think that mostly I believe that life is a bit like a tree, and that there are several branches we could take. I think that’s where the controlling our own destiny bit comes in. If we choose a certain branch then our life will go one way, and fate will throw things at us from then on.
It’s funny how big of an impact you have on me. It’s like when I see you, you don’t even have to speak, all you do is say hi to me, and it can make my day.
It’s the people who hug you and never want to let go, the people who you haven’t seen for months, but nothing has changed at all, the people who give to you more than you give to them, the people that truly understand who you are, the people who you cry about, the people who you live for, the people in your photographs that have light genuinely shining through their eyes and their smile, the people that take your breath away, It’s funny because those are the only people that really matter.
Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understandings with passing whispers of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. Others stay in our life awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same.
And then we attach ourselves so strongly to people that when they’re gone, a part of us is gone too.
You're that kind of person that matters. In fact, you're the only one who matters.
I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you.
I sometimes feel a little jealous inside, imagining someone could please you more than me I guess its my insecurity acting up a bit because I know I’m not the most beautiful, most fun or even the most exciting person you’ll ever meet but I do know that no matter how hard and long you search you will never find another person who loves you with the beauty and the passion with that which I feel for you.
Just when you least expect it I start thinking about how you makes me laugh and how I feel when I'm around you. Then I realized after all this time that I care about you a lot more than I thought I did.
If you can’t get someone out of your head maybe there supposed to be there.
You were the one who made things different, you were the one who took me in. You were the one thing I could count on, above all, you were my friend.
It’s true we don’t know what we have until its gone, but its also true we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives. That's what a lot of people are scared of.
Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you.
I’ve learned in my lifetime so far, that you can’t help who you fall for and no matter how hard you try or how much it hurts you, everyday that you just wanna be with them or just talk to them. You never stop trying to make them happy by the little things you say or do because that’s what makes your life worth going on for.
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.
I’ll never find another friend to take the place of you. No one will ever touch my life exactly like you do. No one who’s quite so thoughtful, no one I cherish so. No one will mean so much to me, I just want you to know that...
When I'm at my lowest points, I think of you and remember that the world isn’t falling apart, even if it feels that way.
I also want you to know that you're my everything.
And when you have everything, you have everything to lose.
I don't ever want to lose my everything.
It seems the more you live the faster time goes by. And you find yourself holding on the best you can to the memories, the ones full of tears, laughter and smiles, the unforgettable moments frozen in time and existing now in photographs. And every time you hear a certain song or word or place, it all comes back as if the moment never ended. And you soak it all in again, every smile, every face, every second, and you promise yourself again that there is no better time than now and there are no better people to share it with than the ones you love.
I want to spend those moments with you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and life after death. I never want it to end.

Honey, I love you.
Will you marry me?

What is Love?

What is love? How do you know when it's love?
You know when you’re singing along with this song, and you know all the words cause you really love it. Then a train passes and a door closes, and you can’t hear the music anymore, but you keep singing anyway. Then, when you can hear it again, you’re still perfectly in time with it. That’s what love is.
That's how it is with you. Love has no distance. The test of love is not when we are together. It comes when we are not together and realize that despite the distance, love is still there.
Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.
When you're not there, I'm so scared. When the thought of losing you happens to run by, I get so scared. But it’s good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose.
I can't believe I ever held back from trying to make contact with you. I tried to deny it. It’s hard to pretend you love someone if you really don’t, but it’s harder to pretend you don’t love someone when you really do.
One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart you can’t speak. I was always looking for that right moment. But maybe there are no right moments, right guys, right answers. Maybe sometimes you just have to say what’s in your heart.
I always had little tiny bursts of confidence but it goes away. The feeling. That feeling that you have right now. Today. That feeling like you can do anything. That clarity. It goes away. And you go right back to being the coward who can’t tell the person you love how you feel.
Sometimes you want something so badly that you’re afraid of the consequences. But are you really afraid of the consequences? Or are you afraid of what you really want?
Thank you for stepping up. I always told myself that I could be that person. You can be anything you want. But you have to take a risk sometimes. Reach out. One thing I can tell you for sure is this: we only regret what we don’t do in life.
I regret it. But I don't regret now. I don't regret that even though we started later than that I would've wanted, we still started regardless. That's why I believe that when two people are meant to be, it doesn't matter how, when, or where. They'll be together.
But so what? Nobody’s life is filled with perfect little moments. And if it were, they wouldn’t be perfect little moments. They would just be normal. How would you ever know happiness if you never experienced downs?
It was a long wait for something I wasn't even aware of. It was a slow change for something I didn't know I was supposed to be prepared for. But you know the great thing, though, is that change can be so constant you don’t even feel the difference until there is one. It can be so slow that you don’t even notice that your life is better or worse, until it is. Or it can just blow you away; make you something different in an instant. It happened to me.
You happened to me. I hope you know that. But if you dont, I guess that’s the point of it all. No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other people. Oftentimes, we have no clue. Yet we push it just the same.
The last couple months of my life has been like this wide-awake nightmare of conflicting emotions. But no matter how bad it got, one thing kept me going. Us. Our bond, our connection, whatever you want to call it. It made me feel like I wasn’t alone, like I was part of something special. So I won't ever whine about being friends or not being friends, if it ever comes to that point. It’s just that, for the first time in my life at that moment, I won't feel that connection anymore.  And it scares me. The thought scares me.
You mean so much to me, that I’m scared to close my eyes and open them and see that you’re not there. And I’m scared to leave them open to see you leaving me. But if you really love a person, you will let them be happy with whoever they are with, even if it’s not with you.
I'd do that. No second thoughts. I'd do that.
But thoughts like this are what keeps from being a complete optimist. It makes me be a realist. This is why you should never, ever get your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you aren’t as devastated.
But sometimes life is so perfect, isn’t it? It has to be! To make up for all the hard stuff it throws your way. You have to learn how to walk, you have to learn how to talk, you have to wear that totally ridiculous hat your grandma bought you. You have no say in the matter and when you get a little older, you don’t get to choose what they put in those meatballs at the cafeteria. Things happen, and you just have to deal.
Life is truly a ride. We’re all strapped in, and no one can stop it. As you make your way from youth to adulthood to maturity, sometimes you put your arms up and scream; sometimes you just hang onto the bar in front of you. But the ride is the thing. I think the most you can hope for at the end of life is that your hair is messed up, you’re out of breath, and you didn’t throw up.
Sometimes, if you're lucky enough, you'll meet a person like yourself. You meet people who forget you. You forget people you meet. But sometimes you meet those people you can’t forget. Those are people like you. They say, ‘forgive and forget’, but if someone’s worth forgiving, you’ll never forget them.
Nobody takes a picture of something they want to forget.
I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. And it’s not because you are unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You’re the epitome of every attribute and quality that I’ve ever looked for in another person.
It’s not just a physical attraction, I love you for every single thing you are. Every word you say, every step you take. This is something that will never die. I have tried to stay reasonable with this, but I just can’t anymore. I just can’t.
Love is living your own life, but sharing it. Love is forgiveness, its making a million mistakes and turning them into learning experiences. Love is patience, optimism and sometimes its a kiss when there is nothing left to say.
I’ve kissed a guy… I’ve kissed guys. I just have not felt that thing…. That thing… That moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy, and the only thing in focus is you and this person. And you realize that that person is the only person you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift. And you wanna laugh and you wanna cry, ‘cause you feel so lucky that you’ve found it, and so scared that it’ll go away all at the same time.
Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.
All my life I never found what I couldn’t resist, what I couldn’t turn down, I could walk away from anything I ever knew, but I just can’t seem to walk away from you.
Because honestly, there’s no such thing as the perfect soul mate. If you meet someone and you think they’re perfect, you better run as fast as you can in the other direction, cause your soul mate is the person that pushes your buttons, pisses you off on a regular basis and makes you face your shit.
That's why I can never walk away from you. You may irritate me sometimes, but you bring out the best in me.
There's people telling me that it won't work out, but I don’t care what they say. They say you might hurt me and they’re probably right. They say you're just out to play games. But when I’m with you it feels so right. So how can they possibly think that what I feel for you is wrong? Maybe they’re just confused, because I’ll never believe that something that feels so right could ever be wrong.
Throughout life you will meet one person who if unlike any other, you could talk to this person for hours and never get bored, you could tell them things and they won’t judge you. This person is your soul mate, your best friend… Don’t ever let them go.
I won't ever let you go.
I love you. Foreve_.
Just so that forever will never end.

KONY 2012